Ok blogging here we go. I have about 6 or 7 weeks to go before our beautiful baby girl arrives, which makes me nervous. Not that having a baby is the nervous part or anything it's just the whole surgery and c-section thing. Just being in the operating room fileted open gives me goose bumps knowing anything can happen and the scary part would be leaving my husband alone to take care of 3 kids. So alot of prayers will be said and possibly a trip to the hospital sanctuary on the morning of delivery, just to calm my nerves which may or may not help who knows. knowing that once everything is said and done, a healthy baby girl will be ours to care for until God calls her home since we live on borrowed time. The anxiety is building just to know that one day I'll be able to see what and who she looks like, hold her and feed her but most of all protect her. Protect her from harm and those she's needs to be protected from, all the while giving her the life she deserves. With a great support team and a loving family this will all be possible through them and God. Til the day we meet little one, know that mommy is going to do her best to take care of you and provide what you need until we meet face to face.